It was an emotional episode watching Sheldon and Amy get married in the touching season 11 finale of the show. It has been revealed that it wasn’t only an emotional time for us as viewers, but it was an emotional experience for the actress who plays Amy, Mayim Bialk.
Bialk took to her website to talk about the emotional struggles she dealt with shooting the wedding scene. The experience brought back old memories of her being married in real life to Michael Stone from 2003 to 2012, which led to a divorce.
“As a divorced woman, it is hard to revisit that moment and those decisions. It is still painful to think about putting on the dress you take vows in, the dress that’s in every picture of the perfect happy life you think you’ll have when you are young and getting married,’ she wrote in her blog post.”
The actress was not comfortable wearing Amy’s wedding dress, confessing that she felt crummy and even though everyone said she looked beautiful, she didn’t believe them.
“I did not feel beautiful. Because this is real life. I’d started losing weight a few months ago. Why? Because I needed to,’ she went on to say. ‘And so, I gained weight back. I wanted to keep losing. And instead, I am back to not being comfortable. I felt ashamed. I felt like maybe the wardrobe ladies were looking at me like, ‘Oh, she tried to lose weight and maybe she did not have the willpower.’ They probably would never think that–it is my brain thinking that. But that is the truth. I did not feel my best. I felt crummy about it. Even though everyone said I looked beautiful, I did not feel completely beautiful.”
When talking about the scene itself, Mayim said, “It’s emotional to tell someone you love them even when you are acting. The first time I read those lines, I got emotional for real. Because it’s my job to embody this character and to feel what she feels. She’s me, and I’m her, I suppose. I love Jim Parsons as my co-worker and friend. Although it is sometimes hard to keep a straight face saying such lovey-dovey things, there is no one I would rather say them to than Jim.”